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lost control

After a man entering his cozy room, he immediately feels dissatisfied for the location of goods he plans. So, he moves his goods and cleans his room again and again. Although he finishes his cleaning works, pressure in his mind will suddenly interfere him to clean his room continuously. Gradually, he can not control his behavior anymore. Finally, he enters into disorder. In disorder, he can not control his behavior and situation anymore. He is engulfed by disorder. In the bubble, he floats and drifts with wave motion of his emotion. After all, can he protect himself and not to be interfered by disorder? The story is adapted from the condition of my friend, through my long observation. I think about the relationship between obsessive-compulsive disorder and order by another point of view. The author discovers that the friend will only conduct obsessive-compulsive disorder in his room, so the story starts from the friend’s room. He will start endless behavior of obsessive-compulsive disorder. Invisible sound and interference will stimulate the role into a more crazy state. The protagonist will use the ruler and the line to regulate his behavior. Not only the location of the object, but also tilt angle are important basis. It makes him how to judge the correct border, and also makes him get a sense of security. Most people think that obsessive-compulsive disorder is a symbol of order, but the author does not think so. When the patient is more tangled for order of objects´╝îit is more difficult for him to control his own emotions and behavior. Finally, he will be out of the standard of nature. And this is also the most important core of this creation. When the character and items gradually lose the order, they enter a more chaotic space. Then they are wrapped in bubbles. The story gives a metaphor that the choice between order and disorder, only patient can choose by himself. There is only a fine line between order and disorder.

Tse-Chang Chai